In 1995, after fleeing Southern California with my wife and son, and suffering a particularly cruel winter in Park County, spring came.
Suffering cultural shell-shock, and still shivering, we drove down to Canon City to thaw out. When I beheld the river in all its muddy, raging glory, I was both impressed and repulsed- intimidated and intrigued. At that time, I could never have imagined how this wild, foaming torrent would impact our family’s life.
While I had grown up on the coast, lived on various beaches, and was an avid waterman and commercial diver, the whitewater world was totally foreign. My exposure to whitewater adventure was basically confined to Splash Mountain.
We moved to Canon City, and I went rafting a few times. The guides were great. They reminded me of surfers, but happier; a fearless tribe of smiling, hairy people who wore PFD’s and strap-happy sandals like formal attire- an itinerant clan that mysteriously appeared when the river rose and vanished just as quickly before the leaves changed.
In the ensuing years, we had two more sons, Blake and Ashton. Blake, our eldest, would become a local raft guide (within moments of his 18th birthday) and kayaker. Eventually water would define his professional life as he became one of the youngest Dive Instructors in the country, going on to work at the Virginia Beach Aquarium.
Ashton was never river inclined, but was a proverbial fish on our annual family beach trips. We took our SUP boards and paddled together in the pristine waters of Grand Cayman, under languid Caribbean, rose gold sunsets. We paddled on the brilliant, teeming Mesoamerican Reef in Belize. We paddled the blue Atlantic in choppy, wind tossed waves by the Frisco pier in the OBX. We had so many great times together on and in the water, but not yet on the river.
In 2014, Whitewater SUP was becoming a thing and I was ready to jump in. I marched into CKS during Paddle Fest, and stunned my amazing wife by dropping an absurd amount of un-budgeted money on a 10’6” Starboard Whopper Deluxe SUP with all the toppings, and it was on. This beast of a board paddled like a fully loaded tanker, but it was this radical impulse-buy that launched me into the whitewater world.
Many years and boards later, I was invited to become a board member of the Royal Gorge River Initiative Organization, or RG RIO, by Chris Moffett. It was through this that I was inspired to become a Level 4 ACA SUP Instructor, which would allow RG RIO to offer our local community free SUP instruction. Since that time, I have served as RG RIO’s and Canon City’s de facto SUP ambassador. The friendships I’ve made are invaluable and the work I’ve been a part of, helping to preserve, promote, and improve the Royal Gorge region of the Arkansas River, has been one of the greatest privileges of my life.
My son Ashton also became more interested in the river around this time, and even volunteered at some RG RIO community events such as our Annual River Clean Up and Whitewater Festival. I even convinced him to SUP with me on the river! In July of 2021, I suddenly realized Ashton had never been rafting and was thoroughly appalled at myself. How could this happen? He had never asked to go, but I had clearly failed as a father. I called Chris, and he agreed to take Ashton and I down the Gorge in his 10 foot Hyside. It was a perfect sunny day with perfect water levels and the best rafting trip of my life- but most of all it was a perfect day with my remarkable son Ashton.
On November 15th, 2022 Ashton was tragically killed by a drunk driver. He was 18. The months since have been the blackest days of our lives. Sweet memories, such as our times on the water, both soothe and stab our hearts. Pictures and videos of our family adventures serve both to bring smiles and tears and it seems at times like the sun may never shine again. Yet, I’ve since found my time on the water especially precious, and the times of greatest peace.
I will be paddling on this Summer Solstice, the longest and brightest day of the year, in memory of our bright, shining light taken much too soon, in hopes of brighter days to come.